Denmarc Creary - The Plan Lyrics

I am stuck on things I know I shouldn't do
Don't judge me coz this is who I am
Everyday I wake I count my blessings
It's the only way now I stick to my plan
Praying for my downfall while I'm on the come up
Thrones over here they could never take it from us
Even if they stepped back prepared to do a run up
Never happen
This is just the start just imagine when I blow up
Pull up in a old school ting when I show up
Queen so bad she don't need to be done up
Now I know that nothing is for certain
I'm laying out the real in these verses
Looking at my old niggas like they are not the same person
Bad vibes and energies lurking
I try my best to remain so far
But it's close to home when it hits you in your heart
Niggas that would ride shotgun in your car
Niggas that would call your mum their aunt
Niggas that would
I'm off that shit
In my way, on a roll
Can't stop that quick
Had love
Did dirt
Then I lost that bit
Went ghost
Turned back
Then lost that itch
Photoshop fake guys
Crop that list
Have to check fake guys
Grab that tit
Have to lead by example
Not by lip
So they know what a real one is
As real as this
See patterns in the making
So I don't say nothing I just make shit
Steady with the basics
Takes a whole life just to make it
Feeling under and over rated
I see both sides of the matrix
These niggas say their shits real
But their not even sober to create it
I am stuck on things I know I shouldn't do
Don't judge me coz this is who I am
Everyday I wake I count my blessings
It's the only way now I stick to my plan
All my niggas think I was slacking
They don't know I was hiding all the pressure
Working through depression still was tryna get better
Thoughts change like the weather
And your f*cked if your clever
This game can be madness
One day you feel like an icon
Next day you barely feel average
Then you know how life gets
Throws you a spanner in the works
All this while tryna re-establish
The reason why you do this
The reason why you left all that money on the table
Just to focus on the music
The reason why niggas act stupid
The reason why these niggas don't speak
When they know who the truth is
The reason why you even give a shit
The reason why you care so much
Bout what other people think
The reason why it doesn't come quick
But I'm back so get ready for the hits motherf*ckers