Despicable - Free My Mind (feat. txtyle) Lyrics

Every time I confide in the vibe
Beats, rhymes and lines
Defy every feeling that creeps and hides
To keep minds alive
We need to believe
As a means to survive
Self-hatred, lonely sin
Know that the wind
Carries a dream seed deeply within
Alive or just breathing, fork in the road
Realize we define the unknown
Stress days in a tech maze
Big brother bets made
That's how the ref gets paid
Colonize minds, final frontier
Make us question our essence
Then they're done here
Fear, prime time amplified all week
They buy and sell opinions like it's wall street
They try and make truth delirious
Don't let them uproot the true human experience
Every time I close my eyes I feel the need to write
Like there's just a pain inside that does not want to hide
So I pick up the pen and write
I'm working until the morning light, it's feeling like a 9 to 5, I think I've lost my f*cking mind
Always trying to write
I'm never going left
You don't know about the struggle, you don't know about the stress
Yeah, you don't know about the stress that I've been through,
All the struggle and the pain that we've all been through
What would it mean to you, If your family was torn apart
Nobody to hold your hand while you walk through the dark
I'm like a silent type, don't really like to bark
I pick the pen up again and write it from the start
Page after page, I've been writing my words down my words sound like a preferred sound to hurt now
I'm looking at clouds and wondering how, something so bright can make a thunderous sound
And start to rumble the ground
And change the way we're living
We need to work through all the problems I've been given
I've been living behind bars my life is like a prison
Talk about my problems and I just keep on wishing that they go away
But they come back another day
Since my mother and little brother moved away life ain't been too great, no one to talk too
Wish my f*cking life would have came with a walkthrough.
Feeling like Soulja boy, I kiss her through the phone, tell I love her and hug her and I want her to come home
But when I'm sat at home I'm feeling all alone, my mind starts to roam, straying in the danger zone
I keep thinking about my struggles
Tears can make puddles
Fears have been crumbled, all these years don't mean f*ck all
Because I feel I've been to hell and back, people say "You okay?" I reply "I'm well in fact"
Was I really selling that?
Or could you tell that I was lying?
Pain that's in my mind it keeps on multiplying
Dryness in my eyes and you can tell when I've been crying
An emptiness inside, I think my soul is dying
Shit
Should I fight or give up
I'm sick of trying all the time I keep on trying my luck
I used to always get judged when I wrote a lyric book but now I'm little bit older I don't really give a f*ck
See, the flows I compose are always gonna get tighter
And the foes will never come close with bars that I've been writing
I suppose I should just go, blend in with the crowd
Put my hood up, put my head down, and listen to the sound of my local town telling me I need to get a job
This f*cking music dream should all just be forgot
I wanted to go to Uni for music but no one was backing me
Felt like my elders were just verbally attacking me
But I was like, "actually, I think this is the path for me", want a career plan to move upon it gradually
So I keep climbing and climbing until the top, but I keep thinking my rhyming just needs to stop
I'm just trying to free my mind, leaving everything behind