Black Rose Garden Video (MV)

Do you like the way I break for the image I create?
I could let you go, for the way it would
Impact on the way I behave
This self-destructive, nihilistic
Bullshit has to end
I'm sick of laying petals over thorns that overtake my bed
I can't deny, I feel fine
On the line, that's a lie
I choke on the isocyanate
This might be the only time
You watch me water the seeds that you've sown
As I wake from lucidity
Blegh
Oh, how we compromise with open eyes, get through it
Are you on a chase for you or chase to feel s-something?
I can't see far enough ahead
Far enough ahead to tell if I'm fighting for nothing
Or fighting for something to show me I'm worthy
Of tending to this rose garden
I'm falling, God damn it
Damn it, God damn it all
I keep looking for places to root myself
To learn the ins and outs of this earth
To have an anchor, to start again
To tend to your roses
Blegh
We held each other's hearts in hand as we let it die
Dilution of the feeling, we're filling ourselves with pesticides
Glyphosate, ingested by this lonely sycophant
I'm sick of it
How am I to be a better man?
Through thick and thin
I'll nurture everything you've given him
We wilt again
But will we bloom once the storm ends?
I'm drinking pesticides to feel right
Don't you think the world looks better behind dead eyes?
The sickness that brings me home to you
It's my antidote, it's my antidote
Don't, don't
Leave me sinking
Please keep me locked away within your memories
I'm begging
Please don't forget me
Keep me locked within your heart forever
I can't see far enough ahead
Far enough ahead to tell if I'm fighting for nothing
Or fighting for something to show me I'm worthy
Of tending to this rose garden
I'm falling, God damn it
Damn it, God damn it all
I keep looking for places to plant these dying roots
If I could only trade this trauma
To find find my way back home to you
To watch these roses bloom
To watch your roses-
Eurgh
To watch your roses bloom