Dhanishta - Tapestry Lyrics

I think I'll just accept it
I'll only love myself the way
I love fluorescence
Deep inside a hidden fortress
Where a little bit of shame resides
And
Makes me feel somewhat human
Otherwise I'm just a creature
No one seems to understand

If it's not profound then it's honest
I'm a poser all around
I think I'm something special
In a box under your bed
I could lay around for hours on end
I could never even try
What's a fear of failing got on me
I'm always closing my eyes

Are these
Bad habits, drawing lines across the tapestry hanging
From the stars you pinned to the sky?

Am I guilty
Or just a wall made out of concrete that you
Painted the face you know upon?

Are these bad habits?
Can I just deflect the fact of the matter
Til' the end of time?

Truth is,
I don't care if I died right now
I'm not happy, I'm not even angry
I'll just watch as time
Slows
Down