Dibbs - Chapters Lyrics

I don't wanna fight no more
We were right on course
Fell off just a little I don't write no more
I just talk to the mic it's been like I'm yours
Like I'm talking to myself when I'm talking in my music
Truth is this isn't the only thing in my life that I have been abusing
My health declines it multiplies
Like ever single thing that I've been missing tryna be up on the rise
Don't wanna feel like I never lived when the day comes
What I'll take from this life when I die
This ain't something I can make up
Lost to relationships from all the break ups
Feeling like a clown will somebody get the makeup
Something with yourself man f*ck
Still lost I should know myself but gave up
I can't remember the feeling of in love
All the pain I'm dealing with too much uh
Like I'm a snap get pissed tryna relax till I smash all the cabinets
God I'm about to crash into a wall of bricks
I got me feeling like a bag of shit so how can I change
I'll start at the bottom where I hold all the pain
A whole lot of rain when I bring it out the truth
I'm stuck in my brain what the f*ck am I doing
Can I walk a path without losing everything I have
Waiting for my shot I just know I gotta have it
Don't waste any one moment to blow just go grab it
When will another door open
When is the next chapter
Think I know where I'm going
Gone in the wind like laughter
I've been praying I know this
Bout to go ghost like Casper
All I know is where I bin
But today the only thing that matters yeah
Body in the basement head up in the attic
Guess I get complacent turn into a savage
Forget what I was chasing knew it wouldn't last
Guess I just thought I would always outlast it
Now everything I do I try to do right
This shit ain't nothing new it's all in due time
Put my head down give it my life
Then it felt like the years just flew by
Can I find a way to forgive
Feel like I heal every time that I spend with my kid
Made me see what I'd accomplish if I'd only commit
It was then I realized every day is a gift
This shit ain't lucky like a four leaf clover
Don't say you love me then leave me no closure
I've been doing rap just to keep my composure
I just wanna live for this whole thing over
Cause a lot of people feeling like they never did
I don't wanna die like I never lived
We all wanna get the money and the honeys at the crib
But if you focusing on that you will never get it
Now I'm thankful
My plate plenty full at my table
Want the fam sitting at it f*ck your label
Looking at the whole world at a new angle
When will another door open
When is the next chapter
Think I know where I'm going
Gone in the wind like laughter
I've been praying I know this
Bout ta go ghost like Casper
All I know is where I bin
But today the only thing that matters yeah