I grew up alone without You like a rebellious son
Spewing out all my hate at You, I was a Hellish one
Then the depression worsened, a person full of sin, pulled
Into an inner dimension, never blissful
Yet You never stopped loving me or being merciful
Only You could give my life meaning, make it purposeful
It was me who cursed it full of pain, anger, hate and misery
Who knew I'd be worshipful? Luckily, fate delivered me
From living in darkness, not seeing what made me stumble
A doomed, walking carcass, not speaking, but faintly mumbled
The devil fought me, almost robbed me of eternal glee
But Your grace caught me, it blocked me from infernal heat
Burning like pot leaves, I was rotted, internally
Cause You bought me, my name's not blotted, I turned fully
My old skin died out, where You reside now
From the inside out, Lord, my soul cried out
I called out for You
Didn't think You were listening
But You knew that I was missing You
I called and You heard
Can't believe You knew my hurt
So many years I searched
Then You answered
Rising up in praise for the risen Jesus
Turning to the only Holy One, Who frees us
Standing at the door, knocking, 'cause He seeks us
To help us escape, He saves, because He's just
He must separate the wheat from the chaff
So I accept the life He gave on each one's behalf
So we could overcome the flesh and have freedom from stress
Received His peace and His rest, I was freed from a mess
I confessed, now my sin's as far as east is from west
And my spirit, depressed, became spirited zest
Heart healed and purged, no longer blinded or binded
Went on a search for Truth, took 10 hard years to find it
I was found to get lost in the cause of the cross
He is now and He was, paid the cost to be the Boss
When He comes, all will pause, all in awe with dropped jaws
No more sobs or chaos, just hurraws and applause
I called out for You
Didn't think You were listening
But You knew that I was missing You
I called and You heard
Can't believe You knew my hurt
So many years I searched
Then You answered
I called You after battling to disbelieve You're all true
Still You came to my rescue, so to You, I fall to
It's all due to You I'm not the old me, I'm all new
The wall, You've shattered it, I made a Saul-to-Paul move
Close to death since birth, came into this world all blue
And when the darkness loomed, You were right there all through
You are the light at the end of the tunnel I crawled through
You are the end-all, be-all, cure-all I'm enthralled to
After all, You were the One Whom I was knitted by
And drugs won't satisfy, 'cause only You are lifted high
I'm sifted by Satan, but Your strength helps me from being
Ensnared too hard and my heart yearns to be where you are
When this visit's done and my spirit being is transferred
You were building me up, grateful for every storm I weathered
My rancor and anger festered, I was ill-tempered
You, I censured and slandered, and with Your Word, I tampered
But I've never been better since the day I let You enter
Moved myself and set You centre, took the ransomed debt You rendered
You reached into my inner dimension and Your Hand stirred
My soul to be anchored, so thankful You answered