I felt your lips on mine that night and it all came back
Why do I miss them I just don't know
I'm supposed to be over this but I guess this will
Show me how grow up and I swear I am
Lips do more than talk, and I wish they'd send
Shivers down my spine again
It all felt real, but for now I'll just pretend
That I'm not alone in my room
Laying awake thinking of you
Slowly breaking my mind, pretending that I'm fine
I'll just bottle it all up and stay askew
I smelled you on my hoodie that night and it all rushed in
All the nights spent in cars, that would lead me to bars
I just dwell on it all and make myself fall
For you again, when I just wanted a friend
I don't know how these feelings
Take me over
That's why it's hard to spend my nights sober
Then I'll fall asleep and I'll start all over
I'm not alone in my room
Laying awake thinking of you
Slowly breaking my mind, pretending that I'm fine
I'll just bottle it all up and stay askew
I'm counting down the days
Until I can say I'm okay
But until then I'll count the nights that I dreamt of you instead
And I'll admit that I stay alone in my room
And I'll think of you more than I'd like to
The same story repeats in my head
I'm not really alright awake in the night