Had to wait a few years to heal and let my wounds close
"Here lies the fool" will be etched into my tombstone
You broke me as a child but I've made it now I'm full grown
And optimism only works when you forget what you know
A smile from ear to ear can hide my penance
Who am I kiddin' I am sick of my existence
This pain has paved the way that I've been livin'
I never resist it in fact I bathe in it
You said that you hate me well we have that in common
This mask that I wear holds the strength I cannot summon
I carry my luggage on my trip up to the summit
Dawn of the third day you know the end is comin'
Nothing hurts worse than the curse of memory
You walked through the fire and I followed you blindly
I attempt to forget you and its killing me
You taught me how to love but forgot to mention you would leave
My heart was lost a hundred years ago, my soul is stone
Like a ghost that plagues the sea she will never be with me she will never be with me
I swam the troubled waters after you burned every bridge away
In the wake of your mistakes your eyes spoke words you'd never say
All the games you would play would keep a normal man at bay
But I stayed despite the pain and I regret it everyday
Its just that a part of me was too afraid to let you go
My heart of gold turned bitter cold in the shade of your shadow
You'd never know of my woe because I never let it show
I'd forgo my flesh and bone my souls outgrown this empty home
Now my demons cuddle me every single f*cking night
No matter how I plead they shush me up and hold me tight
Spreading like a parasite shrouding sight of my third eye
They've become a part of me drowning every speck of light
Hopefully I'll never wake and have to start the day anew
I'm living proof a heart confused can't elude the disquietude
There's no excuse I misconstrued all the love I thought I knew
I've paid my dues so I conclude and bid adieu to all of you
My heart was lost a hundred years ago, my soul is stone
Like a ghost that plagues the sea she will never be with me she will never be with me