Di$grace118 - Lost Lyrics

And if you've done what I've done, and if you've seen what I've seen
And if you've lost what I've lost, maybe you know what I mean
When I say that I'm sad, and when I say that it's bad
And when I say I can't cope, and when I take a step back

And I look into my past, and look at all of these tats
And I look into the mirror, and see myself staring back
Cause I just want to feel safe, and I just want to be glad
Another day I'm awake, another day of heartache

And I told you, when you met me, I was a demon
You regret me, you try to protect me, make me feel loved
Then the hard times came, now it's too much
Like nothing's perfect, and if it's perfect, is it really worth it

I brought my problems to the surface, so my suffering had purpose
You made me think you understood, you made me feel like I was worth it
Storms came, and the rain fell, made a demon from an angel
You used to defend me, validate me, now you switched up, and you hate me

How could you just leave me, and escape me
When you told me you'd be there to save me
I know when you close your eyes, you still see me
When you kiss his lips, you still taste me

And I remember the days, you said till death do us part
And I remember the ways, you pulled me up from the dark
And I had so much to say, you had so much to do
And you promised me then, that we would always pull through

I put my life in your hands, I put my trust in your heart
Gave you what I had left, and then you tore me apart
I close my eyes and just think, can I get lost in the void
I can't remember your voice, it used to calm all this noise

Can you blame me for falling so hard
Can you blame me for all those calls
All the stress, all the texts that I sent
I regret everything that I said

I'm a mess, and I'll admit it
Yeah, it's a crazy story, but we did it
We always pushed it to the limits
Always thought you stoked my fire, never dim it

Now I'm staring at the clock, I'm dreading every minute
It's like talking to a different person
Can't believe how you would spin this
Can't believe you think it's worth it

Am I really worthless
Do I deserve this
Like, like what's your purpose
Storms came, and the rain fell

Made a demon from an angel
You used to defend me, validate me
Now you switched up, and you hate me
How could you just leave me, and escape me

When you told me you'd be there to save me
I know when you close your eyes, you still see me
When you kiss his lips, you still taste me
I know when you close your eyes, you still see me

You still feel me, I know when you kiss his lips
You still taste me, you still crave me
You'll never escape me
You'll never erase me

And I know you love to hate me