Sadness and Speech Video (MV)

Yeah yeah
Yeah
I've been down and out lately
I've been hiding my pain to keep y'all happy
Someone tell me what to do
Teach me how to stay humble
I've been trying
I'm tired of faking my feelings
Yeah
Teach me how to write a speech
Cause I'm sad and ain't showing nobody my feelings
Yeah
How I'm feeling
Cause I'm sad and ain't showing nobody my feelings
Yeah
How I'm feeling

Uh
I wanna be happy
I've been sad and faking smile lately
Cause of blisters some people put in my heart
I wanna go crazy in love
I wanna spread love and never give a f*ck if you love me back or not
In fact , lemme stop rapping
No,I reminisce last time I stopped rapping I started crying and never seen nobody caring
I ain't tripping, I ain't telling nobody anything
Y'all will just see me flaring
I putted someone else first then I lost myself
But no venting ,imma stay humble and forget about the past
Consistency is all we need but y'all creating different definition,loyalty never last
Is time I stop feeling bad for people I outgrown cause they never wanted to grow with me
Never prayed for me
This is what I'm meant to be
Life is a bitch
Everybody tryna f*ck with it
That ain't my cup of tea I got a family to feed
I rap about my emotions so y'all can relate
That's my plan, but I just created 411 to talk about when they meet my friends
I guess that's what you get when you a rapper and shop at the same mall with your fans
Yeah
That's what you get when you a rapper and shop at the same mall with your fans

Yeah
I've been down and out lately
I've been hiding my pain to keep y'all happy
Someone tell me what to do
Teach me how to stay humble
I've been trying
I'm tired of faking my feelings
Yeah
Teach me how to write a speech
Cause I'm sad and ain't showing nobody my feelings
Yeah
How I'm feeling
Cause I'm sad and ain't showing nobody my feelings
Yeah
How I'm feeling

My heart beat is racing my breath , something is wrong
The devil been fighting the Holy Ghost for my soul
But ain't no weapon they created that can kill my soul
The fact that I speak for my fam will get me decapitated like Apostle Paul
Pray to God, please help me ball , don't let my enemies rejoice for my downfall
My cycle got small, i got people to cut off, Jarmane taught me everything and how to be that strong
I got 411 for my Paps but I stall
I know that is really gonna cause uproar
Small voices I ignored now they shouting you been warned
If I talk bout my pains again I'll be singing the old same song

I smile because I'm not okay
I smile because I don't want you to think that there's something wrong
I smile I don't everybody feeling sorry for me
I smile because my depression is so deep
My anxiety is so strong
Then I don't want anyone to know this
So I smile

A heart of a gold I've been given by music
Comprehend this is my life ,you stupid
I'm getting something out of my system
You can tell I was ain't me lately
I believe every cloud has silver lining
Wrap your head around this
It ain't no rocket science
Look at my packet size
It can accommodate the whole world
But still ain't no dollar sign
But lemme break the ice
Y'all can take a chill ain't nobody gon' pay the price