DIRTYSCHEMING PRODUCTIONS - TO THE SAME TRAP I KEEP FALLING, I'LL NEVER LEARN Lyrics

Looking myself in tha mirror
Thinking when times were clearer
Now my car don't know were to steer
Did you so bad anytime you was near

Thinking on why did I do this
Tryna to write it all down on a list
Wanting to steal all the eternal bliss
Leaving you blind and behind like some mist

Sayin ill do this and that
Knowin' it was never even a fact
Seeing the best of me but I just look for whatever I lack inside of me

Not seeing the picture of being free
Instead just doing some deeds
Acting important like I'm the lead
Really I'm just wrong and filled with stupidity

Wanting to smoke up some blunts
Getting a gun and letting it jump
Catching a fool and dropping a drum
While I'm tryna to f*ck for fun

Asking for- for- forgiveness
Then going back and watching some tits
While thinking in my head whos a lick
Tryna to find something higher than a splif

But hey thats enough bout me,
Looking for my glorious righteous thee
Seeing me praying upon my knees
Seeing though my fake ass cry for plea

Saying is how do I fix myself
Tryna get my shit to be dealt
Seeing my money slowly melt
Not tryna to tell nobody else

This is my long lost lonely battle
A war for one and no other cattle
Writing this down to show you ill climb higher n higher from this little ladder

And closer and closer than ever before
I have a ways to go to better my lore
So when I die I can look at my lord and tell him thanks for never leaving me because I'm

Looking myself in tha mirror
Thinking of when times were clearer
Now my car don't know were to steer
Did you so bad anytime you was near