The Disassociates - I Don't Wanna Lyrics

I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I know that I don't really want to die
But I don't really want to be alive
I don't want to romanticize it
I'm really hoping you can sympathize with
Feeling crushed by the weight of existence
It's a daydream, not a full-on death wish
But if I could stop my breathing, I could start my healing
I need to escape this feeling
But I know that I don't really want to die
But I don't really want to be alive
I kind of want to quit this game of life
It sucks and I hate it, but death's overrated"Suicide at 25" kind of sounds outdated
But I don't have what it takes to survive
So I don't really want to be alive
I would love to be numb to my senses
And I would do it, but the funeral's expensive
It's not suicidal ideation
I don't think of death like it's my vocation
It's more like a back-up plan
The only thing keeping me alive is knowing I can
Pull the plug if I want to go to hell
Find Dharma
But don't make it sound so sad
'Cause I know that I don't want to f*cking die
But I don't really want to be alive
I kind of want to quit this game of life
It sucks and I hate it, but death's overrated"Suicide at 25" kind of sounds outdated
But I don't have what it takes to survive
So I don't really want to be alive
But if I really commit to my suicidal tendencies
I think my mom and dad will commit to commit me
But I tried and I tried the suicidal hotline
And no one called me back to check if I was fine
It's a good thing I don't really wanna
I know that I don't really want to die
But I don't really want to be alive
I kind of want to quit this game of life
I'm over it, I'm bored
Flip the table, flip the board
I always consider it, but I'm not inconsiderate
So out of courtesy, I guess that I'll survive
But I still don't really want to be alive