[ Featuring Hadassah ]
Hey there dad I guess it's time I came clean
I feel bad I meant to try and deceive
You and that did bring a divide that seeped
Way down past the brink of trying to bring
Us closer again it's time to repent
We can't make amends but time will inject
Us with a good dose of a glimmer of hope
It is a sad note we're sinners I know
At the very beginning we could have built a kingdom
You didn't burry your demons and doof you started beating
Me like a rag doll it is no insult
I tried to ask for a little bit of mercy
You were a pastor supposed to be reformed
The lies a pasport to stifle my mouth hurting
Me like I was a little object I guess I was a punching bag
My mind's in a brittle subject I rest in nightmares dad
Yeah your dad was abusive
Don't you dare spazz intrusive
I hate this rap in truth with
All of the brats in juve-
Nile prisons guess my brain is my prison testing dangerous
Lies listen repping shameless my witness somehow's headless
If it was only up to me I would retrace my steps in time
And I would only keep the memories that deflate the ribs you broke
I forgive U dad
I forgive U dad
I forgive U dad
The past is in the past
I'm not tryna shame face you but I'm sleepless
I'm not lying hate made cause I see my demons
Yeah they're creeping while I'm bleeding in my dreaming they ain't leaving
I can't see the way to free me my minds eating me like easy
Now the depressions a weapon I won't take no pill bottles
Cause I'll dementia the insects yeah I hate the world's shuttle
What am I really saying? I'm still here feeling pain with
Every beating breaking the cycle steering brakeless
If I've got to wake from one more nightmare
I might just go crazy cause the war's my fear
I won't hear I'm great cause I carry so much baggage
I'm not having it be tragic sadly all my pain
Made me become aggressive Satan's apprentice but I'mma defect
Pray that I'll make arrests with J. And then live with my kids impressed
By what their rapper daddy reached yeah and Grandpa ain't a weed
Cause I had to learn to breath, learn your past to forgive
I forgive U dad
I forgive U dad
I forgive U dad
The past is in the past
Yeah this track's man to man yeah I'll rap standing dad
If I'm whack then I'll have you as dad hand your past
To the awesome power of the God who can make you regenerate
Like the Marvel monster in the comics that's named Logan the mutant
The Wolverine shot with adamantium wiped memory rotting as he stands in hurt
Killing himself from the inside out really that's how I feel inside now
It's a very big toxic apple poisoning me turning my face sheet white
I've buried the shocking mantle chocking me green burning my taste inside (I forgive U)
I forgive U dad
I forgive U dad (I forgive U)
I forgive U dad
The past is in the past
I forgive you man to man
Dad I forgive you man to man
I still love you dad
Just don't hurt Luan like you did me
I forgive you for all of it dad right here right now
I really love you
