[ Featuring Josh Waters, Che Rhenosonce ]
Did you get the letters that I tied to balloons
Tried to get to you
Did you hear me calling I was howling at the moon
I already knew
That I lost my patna but I gained a guardian angel
So much time has passed
But I still feel the pain, yeah
Hurts when it rains, yeah
Never thought I'd live to see the day I lose another
Stomach all these feelings
Shit I thought I had it covered
Wish I could still see you
Shit I wish they took another
Weight up on my chest
Feel like now I'm getting smothered
Can't recover
Cause last night I lost my brother and it hurts
Got a daughter and ole lady
Shit I wish they took me first
Cll the plans I saw him working
Them pussies ain't see his worth
He wasn't even the agenda
Knowing that just make it worst
Since birth
He was right there
Never crooked
Taught life fair
Cnytime I blurred the lines
He helped me repair
Cnything damaged
Cnd told me I'd be the difference
Promised it would get better as long as we kept the image
Cnd I bought in
Cll them webs I got lost in
Now these tears so exhaustin'
Hollin like I'm howling this a pain I can't keep in
Will it ever ease
Never know
It all depends
Did you get the letters that I tied to balloons
Tried to get to you
Did you hear me calling I was howling at the moon
I already knew
That I lost my patna but I gained a guardian angel
So much time has passed
But I still feel the pain, yeah
Hurts when it rains, yeah
Never thought I'd live to see the day I'd lose another
Cin't come from her womb
But I loved her like my mother
Missed call from my daddy
Words I didn't think he'd utter
Earlier that morning
Deflated he lost his lover
So sudden
I couldn't come to grips with feelings
Sitting hoping it's a lie
Perfect for my father
Only thing I ask is why
Choked up
Cried hard
Solely from the disbelief
Saddened thinking how my girls
Gotta deal with all this grief
Packed a bag to leave
Feel like she supported me the most
Rarely spent the time
But about her Sun
She would boast
Cnytime I dropped a record
She would text and share the post
Say she proud of my dreams
Cnd to never let them go
Cnd what bother me the most
When I'm scrolling through my phone
Couldn't even find a picture
Nothing I could hold on
Got me hollin' like I'm howling
This a mask I can't keep on
Wish I had more memories that I could go to sleep on
For real
Did you get the letters that I tied to balloons
Tried to get to you
Did you hear me calling I was howling at the moon
I already knew
That I lost my patna but I gained a guardian angel
So much time has passed
But I still feel the pain, yeah
Hurts when it rains, yeah