Donat Lemay - I'm Really Not Okay Lyrics

I am really not okay
Too much time spent with my feelings locked away
I am really not okay
Alone in this parking lot in the pouring rain

What am I to say
Confused, infused with pain
Mentally I am drained
Put up a perfect frame
Of something all too impossible just for me to go and obtain

Cuz it feels like I'm trapped at the bottom of a well
The walls to high to scale
Nobody gon hand me a pail
There's water rushing in and I never learned to swim
I'm drowning, I'm drowning

I hurt the one that I loved the most
How could I do that, but now I know
This is deserved, I had earned it, time to go get my toast, out I go
5 am I make another note, pad was a gift from my favourite girl
A consistent light in my night-lit world
Now I wander blind, in a whirl

This is
This is not
This is not where I wanna be
This is
This is not
This is not where I wanna be

I am really not okay
Too much time spent with my feelings locked away
I am really not okay
Feels like the only cure is buckshot to the
Brain
Brain
Brain