Insomnia Video (MV)

For the last three months it ain't a sunrise I slept through
I try to sleep and get some rest but I'm too stressed to
I do some push ups and overthink my next move
An hour later I get a call from my nephew
He Facetime me I accept it like what' up bro
Its barely 7 in the morning what you up for
You watching transformers? where yo mama at?
Can I swing by today oh I can't promise that
I gotta bust a move a couple things to do
Just let me take care of a couple errands and I'll come hang with you
He said ok then he hang up with joyful eyes
I'm knowing deep down inside I ain't got time to slide
Think I'm a rolling stone sometimes I rather roam
I'm disconnected from this place and I don't feel at home
But being busy don't avoid this ache that's dame near killing me
No time for fam cause this world draining all my energy
Right now it's hitting me that I ain't even called my mama
Most of my folks conversations consist of drama
So I be distant the fam probably think I'm tripping
I'm just committed to the task of handling business
They want the destination but hate the process
Don't take what's handed to me I like to dissect
They tryna take it from us and I ain't stopped yet
Adulthood ain't been the same since my pops left

I'm up half of the night thinking bout the world
Police killing us and pictures of these missing girls
I got three brothers I don't visit and I ain't seen their children
My grandparents don't belong in no nursing building
But I can't take care off me thinking bout the world
How I'm gone take care of me thinking bout the world
Is helping me helping you my current dilemma
Me feeling guilty and this stress is all I remember

4th and broadway I parked outside Souley Vegan
Ordered a black bean burger that's properly seasoned
Get the food taste my fries then as I'm leaving
This man approached me and it looks like he ain't been eating
Excuse me sir can you help me get a bite to eat
I hesitated then fa sho bruh get what you need
He ordered 17 dollars worth of cooked food
Even though I'm under right now it was a good move
Jump in the whip hit a corner see about 50
Black people on the sidewalk tent city
Piled up on each other man this shit gritty
I see my people on the starve and this sit with me
I can't enjoy my fires I'm on this solemn ride
Wishing I can feed more is killing my vibe
I pray and thank the Most High who always provide
Because his blessings I could put this in a couple lines

I'm up half of the night thinking bout the world
Police killing us and pictures of these missing girls
I got three brothers I don't visit and I ain't seen their children
My grandparents don't belong in no nursing building
But I can't take care of me thinking bout the world
How I'm gone take care of me thinking bout the world
Is helping me helping you my current dilemma
Me feeling guilty and this stress is all I remember

Who can I talk to who got the time for me
Need a reason to exist I cant find nothing
I'm located at the bottom of the freeway
Outside your local store my pain on replay
Who can to cry to who got an open shoulder
I'm off balance on this cliff feel like tipping over
Nobody tripping off my grief sleeping in these streets
Until I'm gripping round they neck looking for the treats
Looking for the treats how to smile like a winner when I feel defeat
Looking for the treats how to smile like chilling site up in this heat
Tryna take care of myself feeling for the world
Tryna take care of myself feeling for the world
Who got protect all these ladies and these little girls
I'm done talking

I'm up half of the night thinking bout the world
Police killing us and pictures of these missing girls
I got three brothers I don't visit and I ain't seen their children
My grandparents don't belong in no nursing building
But I can't take care of me thinking bout the world
How I'm gone take care of me thinking bout the world
Is helping me helping you my current dilemma
Me feeling guilty and this stress is all I remember