Dot - In My Head Lyrics

Do you know how hard it gets?
I'm dying to take a breath
It looks like there's nothing left
But the weight that's in my chest
And the voices inside my head
The ones that I can't repress
They won't shut up as I regress
To this black sea of emptiness
And I'm sinking slow to the death below
And no one to take my hand
It's getting colder, I'm sunken lower
To my evil thoughts when I am sober
But I keep on swimming, because I'm sposed to
Hear me world, I'm going global
The days won't get get brighter
But I keep my head above water
So my lips can keep rapping
Just a little while longer
Fighting demons
Never leaving
Drown in sorrow
I don't wanna see tomorrow
I don't wanna cry or see the pain I bring to other people all around me
From the mother and her baby to the beggars in the street
Stress in my body, from my crown to my feet
King of Illuminati, but I never catch a body
But I need another body that gon help me find somebody to cleanse me
Please take away this evil that plagues me
Help me fight these demons or I'm gonna go crazy
Life no meaning, waking up on a daily
Walk up to the Lord hands out nigga save me
Nope, guess I'm on my own
In pain I won't moan
So I'll struggle and I hustle but I'll never groan
Do shit when I'm young I'll do shit when I'm old
I realize I am alone
I don't understand
What is wrong with me
Is there any plan
Is my future bleak?
Why I do exist?
Do I need to be
Here on earth today
Do I need to breathe?
Will I burn in hell?
Will my soul go up?
Will I die today?
Is my heart gon stop?
When will I find love?
This shit don't add up
Will I die today?
Will I live some more?
Things in my head
Make me scared of myself
When I'm sleeping at night
Make me stir and I jump out my bed
Somebody help
My demons residing upstairs
Kick em out my mind
Close the doors fore they take me to hell
Y'all thought you knew me?
Haha motherf*cker blow me
If you knew me then you woulda knew me when
I needed love so I turned to the new me
I'm not choosing
To live anymore and I try to see through this
Like a glass door but nobody give two shits
Bout me no more so I give up its useless
Nobody gets me I feel like I'm cooky
My mind is racing
I'm adjacent
Back and forth I swear I'm pacing
In the hallways of my doorway
Imma run till there ain't no way
Run outta breath
Last till my death
Breathe out relief
Let it out of my chest
Weight carried off I can finally rest
Bosom of God put my head on his breast
Now I can finally die
Weight of the world I can put it aside
Take me to bliss, take me to paradise
Imma prefer when I'm dead to alive
Won't take my life, no no no suicide
Imma just let the music to decide
Hope you now know goes on in my mind
Things in my head and I guess it's my life
Things in my head
Make me scared of myself
When I'm sleeping at night
Make me stir and I jump out my bed
Somebody help
My demons residing upstairs
Kick em out my mind
Close the doors fore they take me to hell
Things in my head
Make me scared of myself
When I'm sleeping at night
Make me stir and I jump out my bed
Somebody help
My demons residing upstairs
Kick em out my mind
Close the doors fore they take me to hell