Douglas C Begay - Self Lyrics

I don't care what you talking bout
Just let me be or I'll isolate
I'm mad as hell you ain't been around
Now how the hell will I navigate?
That is the shit that I get
For putting my faith and my heart in her hands
What is the issue? I never could tell!
Part of me knows that I'll never withstand
Part of me wants to confess
All of this shit was just part of the plan
Maybe my problem was yours
But maybe my problems was simply just due to the stress
But I am forgetful
I'm mourning my past and I'm equally spent
Did i not mention my discipline dead
I don't feel nothing I'm being sincere
All that I got is just me and my friends
I'm hating myself, and I'm hating my ways
Stuck in my room, and won't leave it for days
Rereading the shit that you sent
Back to a time when our love was the same
Back to a moment when we just friends
You was devoted and all about him
I could be proud and i wouldn't pretend
I could just settle alone in my shell
Drinking and wasted, I'd never complain
I must be crazy and truly insane
I don't need much I need smoke and a drink
Maybe I'll go on for hours detailing exactly why I feel betrayed
Honestly you don't want nothing to do
With Douglas 'cause honestly Douglas abusive

Go ahead with your bad self, your bad self
I did do to you what you did to me
Could you tell me right now how that feels?
How that feels? (how that feels)
Tell me right now how that feels?
Was it love or was it lust? cause honestly I can't tell
Go ahead with your bad self, your bad self
I did do to you what you did to me
Could you tell me right now how that feels?
How that feels? (how that feels)
Tell me right now how that feels?
Was it love or was it lust? cause honestly I can't tell

Getting no sleep was the culprit
It's been a few girls since you
Honestly cannot get rid of your odor
What was you thinking?
And what was your motive?
Maybe you thought it was cool to just use me?
When I was just feeling so hopeless
I was just stuck in delusion
Mistake it for being devoted
I feel like I see through the bullshit
But I could adhere to compulsion
Did leaving me matter to you?
I had no input, you kept me from closure
I'ma assume that the guilt was enough
Maybe the weight was increasingly tough
But baby you used me as benefit
That was the moment I fell out of love

Go ahead with your bad self, your bad self
I did do to you what you did to me
Could you tell me right now how that feels?
How that feels? (how that feels)
Tell me right now how that feels?
Was it love or was it lust? cause honestly I can't tell
Go ahead with your bad self, your bad self
I did do to you what you did to me
Could you tell me right now how that feels?
How that feels? (how that feels)
Tell me right now how that feels?
Was it love or was it lust? cause honestly I can't tell