Down Again - Predisposed Lyrics

Started out just a thought
Creeping from the corners that I've never explored before
Ready or not
It caught my attention and made it's way down to my core
Now I can't sleep at night
Tossing and turning, I'm at war inside my own mind
Now I can't turn it off (make it stop)
Maybe I'm trying to be something that I'm not
Is there anything good left
In my decrepit chest
Feel the rot taking hold
Splintered wood, crumbled stone
Is there anything good left
Am I wasting breath
Is this decay, never ending
I was always so proud
In life's competition there was no one better around
Now I'm letting you down
Is there beauty in a tree that's fallen to the ground
Have I always been this way
Can I pinpoint the mistake
That caused me to become everything that I hate
Am I a f*cking fake
Was it all a masquerade
Have I been trying to hide what truly lies beneath
Is there anything good left
In my decrepit chest
Feel the rot taking hold
Splintered wood, crumbled stone
Is there anything good left
Am I wasting breath
Is this decay, never ending
Is there anything good left
Inside my chest
Is there anything good left
Am I wasting breath
Is this decay, never ending
There is no devil on my shoulder
There is no evil in my ear
This monster grew in the darkest corners
Now it's voice is all I hear
Predisposed, is it in my DNA
Has our Lord damned me, condemned to be this way
The darkness gnawing, begging to be set free
But now I realize that the darkness
Is me
I'm not well
Can't help myself
Got secrets that I'll never tell
I'm not well
No soul to sell
God helps those who help themself