I Announced My Suicide At A Family Party Video (MV)

I've never seen the point of existence
I've spent my life wanting to die
I told my family at a birthday party
And now they say I've killed the vibe

I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die

When I was 19, I made the effort
It was a waste, it didn't stick
I've spent the last decade just longing
Of a life where I don't exist

I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die

My family doesn't like my humor
They insist they want me around
But if they meant it, they would show it
There's never been any love to be found

I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die

I can't remember the last time I smiled
In a way that wasn't full of shit
I spend my days drowning in bed now
Playing Halo cuz I can't force quit
I guess I'll keep going in spite of desire
So my stupid family can sleep at night
But if I suffer one more inconvenience
Then I'm pulling the plug, I'm turning out the lights

I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die