This is therefore to say that transformation of human consciousness through meditation
Is frustrated. So long as we think of it in terms of something that I myself can bring about
By some kind of wangle, by some sort of gimmick, because you see that leads to endless games of
Spiritual one-upmanship and of guru competitions, of my guru is more effective than your guru
My yoga is faster than your yoga, I'm more aware of myself than you are, I'm humbler than you are
I'm sorrier for my sins than you are, I love you more than you love me, where this interminable
Goings-on about which people fight and wonder whether they are a little bit more evolved than
Somebody else and so on, all that can just fall away. And then we get this strange feeling
That we have never had, you see, in our lives, except occasionally by accident, some people get a glimpse
That we are no longer this poor little stranger and afraid in a world we've never made
But that you are this universe and you are creating it at every moment because you see it
Starts now, it didn't begin in the past, there was no past, see if the universe began in the past
When that happened it was now, see, but it's still now and the universe is still beginning now and
It's trailing off like the wake of a ship from now, in the wake of the ship fades out so does
The past, you can look back there to explain things but the explanation disappears, you'll
Never find it there, things are not explained by the past, they're explained by what happens now
That creates the past and it begins here, that's the birth of responsibility because otherwise
You can always look over your shoulder and say well I'm the way I am because my mother dropped
Me and she dropped me because she was neurotic because her mother dropped her, now away we go
Back to Adam and Eve or to a disappearing monkey or something, we never get at it but in this way
You're faced with it, you're doing all this and that's an extraordinary shock so cheer up
You can't blame anyone else for the kind of world you're in and if you know you see that I
In the sense of the person, the front, the ego really doesn't exist
Then it won't go to your head too badly if you wake up and discover that you're God