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Tend to lie to myself
Tend to compromise my health
Tend to cry by myself
Swear I'll die by myself
Paralyzed in my hell
Scared that I won't find myself

I can't help but cry at the thought of you
The awful truth
Left to thaw on my brain's kitchen counter
The bad encounters leave a sour taste in my mouth
No money counter has the amount
To amount to the good times we once had
Just want back
The three years we ain't speak
We ain't see the forecast was calling for storms
I'm angry at the force calling you home
Weren't grown enough to be covered
By drops of Jupiter
Lots of Lucifer's lettuce to lessen the sting
I question the lessons life bring
As lightning spiderwebs across the night sky
Knights' shining armor can't protect me
Even with nine lives
Ten times out of ten
I can't prevent the past
I can't pretend to wrap
My head around this
Astounded
How life passes me by
A mountain
A hard place
I'm tangled deep inside
Been racing with the clock
The rain don't wanna drop
A raisin left to rot
The knot is frayed but is it taut
Afraid that it's gon drop me
I'm praying that you got me
Do you copy

Tend to lie to myself
Tend to compromise my health
Tend to cry by myself
Swear I'll die by myself
Paralyzed in my hell
Scared that I won't find myself