Dreadfully Distinct - Awake Lyrics

I can hear voices whispering right behind the door
Light from the outside spreads across the floor
When finally my mind goes clear
This is how it always begins
I become insecure, paralyzed, flooded in a sweat
My heart is beating nearly bursting off my chest
Only one thing can get me through this hour
Intoxication with destructive powers
I know, it can't be justified
I know, you just wanna get inside
And I really wish you would have stayed
But I can't deal with you when I'm in this state
The huge paranoia settles in my head
Many times before, it left people dead
I've got a devotion until it breaks
Come back to me when I'm awake!
When I'm awake!
Come back to me when I'm awake!
When I'm awake!
Come back to me...
Sicknesses, stress and antisocial behavior
No wonder I consider myself a failure
But Am I so different from all the others?
Sometimes, I feel like I'm everyone who really matters
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a selfish person
I just think that self preservation has its own purpose
I've spent a whole a lot of time alone in one room
Contemplating past and assuming the truth
My body's overgrown with the disease and it hurts
I'm being thrown right into center of the universe
There's no way to move on, no way to turn back
My senses become dormant when drifting in the dark
And it always takes too long
I evade anything that gets too close
And then I get angry for my own mistakes
Come back to me when I'm awake
And I know, it can't be justified
I know, you just wanna get inside
And I really wish you would have stayed
But I can't deal with you when I'm in this state
The huge paranoia settles in my head
Many times before, it left people dead
I've got devotion until it breaks
Come back to me when I'm awake!
When I'm awake!
Come back to me when I'm awake!
When I'm awake!
Come back to me...