The truth hurts but I rather hear it
Open conversations with the closes ones around me
Bring some understanding that's needed for growth and family
Take a look into myself and turn these flaws to ashes
Rebirth into a
Wiser man and then forgive myself Hurt a couple people in my life I deal with guilt
I want forgiveness from those individuals indeed
But i gotta accept if i don't get it see
I been an asshole for so long it's hard to change impressions
So the karma that i face it teach me so much lessons
I feel emotion on ten fold this life it ain't a breeze
That's a fact nobody can't deny please Save your ego trips don't f*cking be naive
I'm lost with no direction pressure makes it hard to breath
Gotta find my way no time to cause a scene
Finger pointing such a coward act that's far from me
Intuition never steered me wrong
Ill take a seat
Overthinking got me trippin damn it's draining
Plus that dose of lack of patience got me steady waiting
Need some sunshine in this dark cloud
Heart is feeling vacant so cold I'm shaking
Idk how to let things flow
Dawg im feeling low i need some changes for some hope
Reflection in the mirror i ain't proud but i cope
Looking to the sky for the signs so I know
What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me
I got questions
Does complacency take me
Does awakening equate to something to racy
Where can you place me but first And your funny little buddy fear says
He ain't with the hearse
Contradictions expose those old ego motivations
Don't speak it into existence your throat
Your dealing with cerebral revelations
Somedays i ask myself how bad i want this
At times the doubt so strong
Dawg I'm feeling lost
Barely pray to god
Such a stubborn man
Tend to learn the hard way
That's fasho but that ain't ideal
For the places that im tryna go
Being open minded
Is my biggest challenge now
I am serious person no patience for the clowns
It's hard to crack a smile when life bring more downs than the ups
And blood don't always mean family love ain't always love
Expectations broke my heart
The light it comes to dark
So i never trust a soul their words a grain of salt
I guess they were assigned a role they had to play the part
Moving forward honestly ive been forced to start
Burying my past dwelling till i hit a wall
Spliff after spliff heavy with the grabba lawd
It ain't healthy and i know it but i keep on smoking
Heart rate is raising butterflies all in my stomach
Coping mechanisms digging me a deeper hole
Losing sleep all the stress start to take a toll
I need some help
I need you god
Man you just don't know
I'm tired being f*cked up
Tired being broke
Idk how to let things flow
Dawg I'm feeling low
I need some changes for some hope
Reflection in the mirror
I ain't proud but i cope
Looking to the sky
For the signs
So i know
What's the best decision for me What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me What's the best decision for me
What's the best decision for me
I got questions