my fault Video (MV)

Ok it's been a lot of writing
Think my hands got arthritis
Honestly i've just been hiding away
And finding a climate
Where I tap into my happy place
But I can't seem to find it
Cause the people that surrounding me
Just never seem reliant
So I stay inside my headspace
Emotions getting heavy
Praying I could send me away
Seems like the best days
I can't say
What I don't know but I know where i'm going
So whenever is the lowest
I would see these thoughts awoken
Seems like peace and love don't work
I wanna get below the surface
I see hatred reoccurring
Then see pain turn into burden
Promise momma I would call her
But I haven't had the chance too
I guess she ain't priority
And I look like a bad dude
It's past due, apologies
A brand new philosophy
My bad mood is honestly
When fast food looks like quality
She calling me
And I contemplate to answer
I know it's bout' the family
Like they all really worried
Cause my aunts battling cancer
She's barely in her forty's
They ask to keep it lowkey
But that's another story
I don't wanna intrude with my own premise
That ain't none of my business
Everybody's got different opinions
Like you free from all your riddance?
What car are you driving?
How much is the mileage?
Can we travel in it
And please take me on your highway?
Tell me bout' your life
Open up to me
And then i'll tell you about mine
Cause i've been finding out that vulnerably leads to intimate growth
And I feel like you're not somebody that I really know
I wanna close the gap with you because someday I hope
That you can see the potential at the end of the road
Whoa
I'll see you when i'm back home
For now you can turn the lights off
You never hitting my phone
I feel this is my fault
Yea yea yea
I feel like this is my fault
I feel like this is my fault (Yea yea)
I feel like this is my fault (Yea yea)
I feel like this is my fault (Yea yea)
Alright but
I'm onto bigger better things
Been thinking bout' a wedding ring
The thought of you is settling
Way more than just together everyday
From second grade
Making lemonade
Off of the kitchen table
To enable me
To get some pesos off these written fables
Look
I've been on top of my league
Cannot be dropping the tea
Yea don't got a car with a lease
You paying too many fees
Yea I got a single to tease
Gotta go double the streams
Yea bout' to perform with the ease
And they knowing all of the words
Even the hook and the verse
Kinda like heaven on earth
But still getting sent to the curb
I know I never could hurt,
Something that Ivalue
In my eyes you're a medallion
But i'll put that in the album
Cause i'm trying to find a balance
And I won't
See you when i'm back home nah
So now you can turn the lights off yea
You never hitting my phone yea
I feel like this is my fault
I feel like this is my fault
I feel like this is my fault
I feel like this is my fault
I feel like this is my fault