Weakened Video (MV)

Hi, I'm Dryden, I'm drowning like I'm a weakened Poseidon
I am not someone that you can confide in, it should be you that's deciding
Spending my days writing these songs, nobody knows that I'm frightened
I am just trying to unwind and I'm expecting these roads to widen
Home alone, on my phone, looking for a girl to marry me
But after my twisted conception, do I even want a family?
Let's give it some clarity, you're flying around with zero gravity
Then it all comes crashing down, so f*cking unnaturally
Feel like a victim, trapped in a prison, feeling like no one will listen
My body is here, my mind has gone missing, now watch the blood on me glisten
Look, I'm going round and round in circles, stuck in the same position
And I want this all to end, but I haven't completed the mission
So what does that mean? I don't wanna be another has-been
Flashbacks when I had no friends, 12 and alone in the canteen
Lonely nights, mental fights, lying in bed sipping caffeine
Life is a disease that's contagious can someone please gimme the vaccine

You know you got me weakened tonight
Just wait until the weekend to fly
Just know that I'm not feeling alright
I wanna stop this feeling inside

I put effort into everything I love, but I have no motivation
I wanna be big and famous, but I fell in love with procrastination
Instead of pushing myself, I'm just waiting for that stupid phone vibration
Got to be patient, one day I'll cure this internal frustration
Compliments from boomerang have got everybody talking to the man
Was crawling, then walking, now I'm running to the humming of the tune that I sang
Still stressed and depressed, repressed, I need rest for my chest, I dispute that I can
From a yout' to a man, growing up fast, only got a couple friends, I'm not true to a gang
Locked away, sitting, spitting, admitting that I hate when they're successful
I just can't be arsed, is 20 paracetamol calm to make it less stressful?
Collapsing at school, but that's cool, I made their days more eventful
I'm mental, not what happened, try'na become eternally restful
Try'na fix life just by getting high, I know it's not right, but just let me light, now come inside
Some people tell me to try and stay happy and I do, so believe me when I say that I've tried
You just lied, now let me pick you up and get fried
But would you, along with my so-called 'friends' even miss me if I just died?

You know you got me weakened tonight
Just wait until the weekend to fly
Just know that I'm not feeling alright
I wanna stop this feeling inside