Dschwal - Sober Thoughts Lyrics

Am I everything you ever dreamed of, or was I just a damn nightmare?
I don't give a f*ck, knocking at my door at night trying to get me awake bitch
Telling me that the dreams over
I don't give a f*ck, everything's slower
I've been trying to grow up a little bit faster
Life been going a little slower
I've been trying to keep up with the homies but they've been distant lately

I've been trying to go out a little bit lately but all depression does is keep me in
I be even scared to ask my own friends if they want to go out because, um
Social anxiety a bitch
Crashing in my whip on a whim
Been swerving in and out of lanes, I don't know where the f*ck I'm going though
Been driving at 3 AM a little bit, wishing I was in a foreign though

Well, guess we all can't get what we want
Guess I gotta chase my own dreams
Guess I'm gonna make it one day
I'm a superstar in the making, at least that's what everyone tells me
I ain't doing numbers or shit so please why does everyone tell me
I'm gonna be something in the making?
But nothing really happening, guess I just gotta be patient
Not everything happens overnight
But it's hard to feel patient nowadays when everything feels so limited

I don't really know what to say after this, but
I guess this is a confession of how I feel
Letting everyone in, finally
It's been a fat minute since anyone knew what's been going on with me, honestly
I don't know what the f*ck to think anymore
Guess I gotta put it in some raps
My Mom told me I was gonna make it
Guess I gotta give her some props, because she don't even like rap music and she loves mine
Guess, um, I'm pretty damn good then
Gotta drop out of college though
Gotta go to L.A., get signed, and hopefully don't get in no shitty deal
Yeah, that's how the industry works anyways though

Hope everyone got my back, though
Because I'm really making it
Well, if you leave me
You can kiss my ass goodbye because you're never gonna see me again!