Durango - Split Cerebrum Lyrics

When I think about you
I see regret and pain
But I want it again (again)
This self doubt is sickening
Do I even want what's best for me
Have I become a man (a man)
You want no more time
And just crossed the line
Couldn't you see the signs
Because of you he died
You tried walking the high road
Until your thoughts ran slow
Oh the sheets were blood soaked
Oh you weren't the one provoked
Waking up late is becoming a part of my ritual
I mean habitual
You called me disgusting the feeling is mutual
I need consensual (sex)
I wish I was counting up checks
I wanted the courage to flex
But I am the cowardly dog
And continue to awkwardly stalk
The people I wish I could talk to
When he ran he gave up on the plan
He called you less than
And played you for a fool
I've been here for you (for you)
But you've just ignored me
Won't you just adore me
You're crying on the floor
Whose keeping score
I know the truth (the truth)
You want no more time
And just crossed the line
Couldn't you see the signs
Because of you he died
You tried walking the high road
Until your thoughts ran slow
Oh the sheets were blood soaked
Oh you weren't the one provoked
Not a f*cking angel
More like a damn demon
I have hurt so many people
For what is no damn reason
Depression in these seasons
Feeling like everything is my weakness
Tryna find the meaning in allegiance
In my head I'm screaming for some peace and
If I die don't tell my story because
I don't deserve any glory
I have been f*cking up so for long
I'll probably die before I'm forty
My shorty ride with me
And if she stop I be all right you see
Nobody would die for me
Nobody would die for me