Dyref - My Life Lyrics

Here I lay again
Sad and frustrated
Writing down this lines in my bed
My thoughts are disarranged
What makes me so sad
Mom is it you
Is it my current view of life
I'm not sure and cry out loud
What is this
A depressive phase
An inherited depression
I'm not sure and going out to train again
The workout let me breathe in for a moment
When I thing about my future
I see unattainable dreams
Unattainable dreams
That would make me happy
My life is a lie
Some days I can lay down for hours
Listening to sad music
And like to break up my life
My only motivation
Is the view in the mirror
Where I see my whole fight
The fight of bad and good habits
The fight of hard and easy times
The pain and faith that I had
So I don't think suicide is my only way out
I hate this mess in my head

I gave up my education
To have more time for my self
To solve my problems
And produce my music
I miss this feeling
When my mom was waiting
For me to come home
I don't know how to tell my dad
I hate myself more than
I ever could hate a human
For my laziness
For my ingratitude
I tried to gave myself
Daily aims and I failed every damn day
Every damn day
When I thing about my future
I see unattainable dreams
Unattainable dreams
That would make me happy
My life is a lie

Bridge
My hope is it to finding my self
And live the life I daily dreaming of
My hope is it to finding my self
And live the life that I daily dreaming of

When I thing about my future
I see unattainable dreams
Unattainable dreams
That would make me happy
My life is a lie