Dyse - My Disease Lyrics

I haven't ever really found a place that I'd call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize once again knowin' that I'm not enough
But it's not as if I mind & your heart, it ain't exactly breakin

All these people saying how hard their life is
I sit and listen to them and ignore my crisis
I suppress my emotions as I try to fight this, but
What the f*ck they think they'd know about a life that's like this?
Spill my heart onto the page, with every line I'm a poet
Writing in a daze, I've lost my mind and I know it
I struggle for survival and they never even notice
And then tell me that they care but they ain't never there to show it
I'm devotin' my mind to tyin' these intricate binds
I combine every line to show the thoughts on my mind
Sunshine only lies (so) I use the moon for my eyes
Step inside, let us try, yo, it's time for a ride
Passing through the street, I'm just someone you'd miss
The darkness in my mind puts my soul in abyss
It hasn't been a long time since I felt death's kiss
But I never made it up, I'm still stuck like this

I haven't ever really found a place that I'd call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize once again knowin' that I'm not enough
But it's not as if I mind & your heart, it ain't exactly breakin

You live your life once, it needs your all; so you give it
You test yourself and life itself and take it to new limits
At the end you pay the price for the crimes you committed
And I done did a lot, I stand with God as my witness
But how would you feel if the pictures weren't so vivid?
Memories come and go and leave your past in snippets?
My written's got me spittin' like a dark-hearted cynic
Cuz I can't maintain focus just for one f*cking minute
This life ain't exactly going how I envisioned it
The fights and the blows got me down in a collision pit
My writtens with precision are how I make decisions
With this f*cked up disorder and a dream that keeps me driven

Shit, I've tried different things just to try and save myself
The meds that's supposed to help just started f*cking up my health
And now I spiral down into this never ending well
But I never see the angels, even when I hear the bells

I haven't ever really found a place that I'd call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize once again knowin' that I'm not enough
But it's not as if I mind & your heart, it ain't exactly breakin
I haven't ever really found a place that I'd call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize once again knowin' that I'm not enough
But it's not as if I mind & your heart, it ain't exactly breakin
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