E$aLUV - HOW YOU BEEN? Lyrics

Relax
Everything is gonna be okay
I've been
I've been
I've been
I've been
I've been yeah
I've been
I've been
I've been
I've been
I've been yeah
Ok
I've been dealing with my own self identity
Devil demons tryna get a hold and get rid of me
Close friends loved ones turning to my enemies
Talk about god's plan don't know if he's saving me
Wanna shoot myself 10 times with a pistol
Life fell down so fast like a missile
I been treated badly like you don't even know
Heart shattered so many times like a crystal
I've been rapping since the age of 15
I'm tryna show the world my rap you'll see
I'm going through the struggles of life sadly
You said that you would stay you left hurt me
I try to not to blame all the pain on you
I focus on myself but it is cause of you
Sacrifice the love all the time all the money
Did it all for you but I guess you don't love me
I've been
I've been
I've been
I've been
I've been yeah
I've been
I've been
I've been
I've been
I've been yeah
Ok
I been closer to death than to live
I feel like I'm Anakin going to the Sith
Falling for the love now I don't wanna exist
Hurting deep inside so I'm gonna
Plead the fifth
Pray to god for the things to get better
How do I feel when the doubts from your mother
Worried she would leave and just
Leave me in the gutter like f*ck my life
Does it even f*cking matter
I been smoking I been drinking I been living
I'm partying all night but I'm really going through it
I don't care about shit so you
May just call me stupid I don't need no
Bitch so I say it and repeat it
The old me gone and the old me dead
I got new goals so they stuck
In my head I'm judging myself
But it's all for the process talk your
Talk yo shit boy tell your girl to watch this
That's how I've been tho
Yeah yeah
LUV