$ebbuku - Mum, I'm Scared Lyrics

I'm so proud of you
I love you so much
I know you're scared, but it will all be over soon
I remember all the times we used to talk
Talk to me like I'm your son again
I miss the way you talked
I'm by myself again
I remember whispering in your ear
Mum, I'm scared
Dreaming that one day you'll disappear
Mum, I'm scared
I'm not old enough to face my fears
Mum, I'm scared
Yeah, I'm scared
Yeah, I'm scared, Yeah
Cuz It started off when I was born in 2004
I knew my family loved me, but I knew I wanted more
Asking all the questions but I'd never get an answer
Now I'm full of pain and its spreading like a cancer
If you were here today, tell me, would you be proud
Never show emotion cuz I know I'm not allowed
I'm not scared to talk, so I'm shouting out aloud
At my funeral yeah, I'm just hoping for a crowd
Lost my mind, never felt so weak
Cuz I'm so scared no I can't speak
I won't stop now cuz I've come so far
This isn't a goodbye more like an au revoir
I remember whispering in your ear
Mum, I'm scared
Dreaming that one day you'll disappear
Mum, I'm scared
I'm not old enough to face my fears
Mum, I'm scared
Yeah, I'm scared
Yeah, I'm scared, So scared, Yeah
I got demons running loose inside my head
Mum, I'm scared
Run back to the coffin, that's my bed
Mum, I'm scared
I don't understand how I'm not dead (Not dead yet)
Mum, I'm scared
Yeah, I'm scared
So scared, yeah
Losing my mind when I hear your name! (hear your name)
I don't understand why you left me
Why
Cuz I'm so scared of losing you
So please don't go, don't leave me now
Cuz I'm so scared, so scared of you
Why
Yeah you know that I'm terrified of you
I'm terrified
So scared yeah
I'm so scared
Yes, I'm terrified