Man in the mirror, I wish that he would disappear
He's lookin' at me with pain, if he could bust through the pane, he'd probably turn around in fear
Nah we was never the same, I'd always give him the blame
I hate to see him appear
I'd hear 'em callin' his name, and I was always the ashamed, I never looked in him clear
Shit
Now I'm just a shell of a man, one hell of a man
Sometimes I barely feel like the man, can't help what I am
Well now I know I'm only a man, I do what I can
From fire to pan, been biting the hand, been fighting the plan
Been tryin' to speak shit to life, ain't a soothsayer
I'm just tryna- give God these battles ain't no peacemaker
Tryna wear a- smile on my face I can't be no faker
Feels like I been- losin' the race I'm still my worst hater
Y'all don't know I'm suit and tie-ing all of my suicidal tendencies
I'm a professional emo, I'm killin' the weakness
My remedy is to smother my ego with alcohol and a strain
When I'm feelin' the rain, wash off all the pressure and pain
When the depression is present, try not to reflect on my aim
It's all in my brain, I tell myself it's all in my brain
I'm working to change, but future brings anxiety chains
If life is a game, how long until my health regains
Pray for my- enemies so when I beat them I'm stronger
This ain't forever it's longer
If this my road I'm a Honda nah f*ck it
I'ma Challenger cause I'm dodgin' these demons
They plottin' and schemin' whenever I get low they be singing
I really be thinkin', am I up on this rock for a reason
I weather my seasons, I add up wins and losses they even
I really can't even, I'm odd as f*ck, don't give me a reason
I swear I'm nice until you give me a reason
Man in the mirror, I wish that he would disappear
He's lookin' at me with pain, if he could bust through the pane, he'd probably turn around in fear
Nah we was never the same, I'd always give him the blame
I hate to see him appear
I'd hear 'em callin' his name, and I was always the ashamed, I never looked in him clear
Shit
Now I'm just a shell of a man, one hell of a man
Sometimes I barely feel like the man, can't help what I am
Well now I know I'm only a man, I do what I can
From fire to pan, been biting the hand, been fighting the plan
Been tryna spread myself out to give to everybody
You say you need me, believe me, I'll be there for anybody
Nobody need me well on that day, it's f*ck everybody
No one believes you until they come identify your body
Every time I look at my reflection
I can see objections stuck in my complexion
I am so perplexed at why I chose defection
All this people pleasing, gave me an infection
After recollection, now it begs the question
Where did all this come from, no more self-deception
Maybe lack of love, attention, since conception
Maybe pent aggression, guess that's my confession
I need intervention, time for introspection
Finally I found it, genuine connection
No more are the days of drowning in depression
Now I have conviction, time for new direction
After self-inspection, I am imperfection
But I'm worth respectin' and deserve affection
Time for resurrection, time to learn to love
Slip my iron hand into a velvet glove