EddyFromMusic - Ghosts in My Head Lyrics

This one's for the past...
It's the hidden scars man...
I was just a kid, trapped in parents selfish fire
Felt like a warzone, home full of liars
Never had a place I could truly call home
Spent childhood mostly alone
Kidnapped, tossed around, city after city
Years flew by, but no one showed pity
One year with her, then two years with him
Back and forth, Tug of war, love twisted on a whim
Grew up hatin' the woman who gave me life
Brainwashed young, couldn't see the strife
By fourteen, I had to pick a side
Dad fed me lies, put hate in my eyes
They then dragged me into court
Judge lookin' at me like I had a choice to sort
Dad said, "Tell 'em you wanna live with me"
Didn't realize then, he was using me
Told 'em I wanted dad, but it wasn't my choice
His words were in my head, didn't have my own voice
But deep down, man, I was lost and blind
Only wanted peace, but that's hard to find
Now mom's gone, sickness took her away,
She was a burden, man, in every way.
Never had advice, no lessons to give,
But somehow I miss her, confused as I live.
We spent some time together before the end,
Happy we had the chance to make amends.
I remember her touch, soft but cold,
Her scent lingers still, like stories untold.
Her voice echoes faint, though we barely spoke,
It's those little things that I miss the most.
Ghosts in my head, they keep me awake
The past still haunts me, no matter what I make
I climbed so high, but they envy my grind
They don't see the demons I leave behind
Ghosts in my head, they don't let me sleep
Dreams of killin' the man that hurt me deep
But I'm still here, fightin' to survive
Writing this song just to stay alive
At eighteen, I packed my bags and fled
Left behind the chaos, the words left unsaid
Went as far as I could, searching for a way
As new walls closed in, had to fight every day
Outworked 'em all, climbed the ladder fast
But success brought envy, friendships don't last
How can you hate on the hustle I made?
I turned nothin' to somethin', every bill I paid
I worked hard, for every dime that I earned
But my father took it all, never returned
Lied through his teeth, and smiled in my face
Thought I was free, but I was stuck in place
Now I'm in my 30s, haven't seen him in years
Haven't spoken to dad in at least a decade of tears
Ready to be a father, tryin' to break the chain
But I come back, only to find the same pain
All the lies and the games are happening again
My little sister trapped, like I was back then
Everything I went through, she's goin' through too
It's a nightmare repeating, and I know what's true
The man's a monster, hiding in plain sight
He tore us apart, now I see the light
Now it's clear, I've got to stand tall,
I'm the only one who can save them all.
Secrets unravel, what's hidden comes out
My step-sister's pain, left me filled with doubt
Told me her story, the truth so cold
Trust shattered as the lies unfold
We were only six, he'd sneak in late at night
Shadows in the doorway, turning off the light
Whispers in the dark, she was too young to fight
Stolen innocence, buried deep out of sight
Years of silence, too scared to speak
But now the truth's come out, leaving me weak
I went to him, fists clenched with rage
Years of silence, now we're on the same stage
He tried to deny it, like he always would
But I saw the truth, no more actin' good
Words turned sharp, fists raised in the air
Our battle broke out, in that moment of despair
And now it's in the air, the truth's been exposed
All his secrets, the lies he chose
People whisper, the stories spread fast
Everything he hid, now out at last
He had a life in the shadows, no one knew
A long-term affair that nobody could view
A young boy, kept in silence and fear
But now the truth is crystal clear
The world sees him for who he really was
No more charm, no more applause
The mask is off, and the damage is done
All the pain he caused, can't be outrun
He lived two lives, but now it's plain
The truth cut deep, and left nothing to gain
Ghosts in my head, they keep me awake
The past still haunts me, no matter what I make
I climbed so high, but they envy my grind
They don't see the demons I leave behind
They don't know about the blood in my dreams
The screams I hear, the violent scenes
Killed him a thousand times, in my mind he's gone
But every day, he's still draggin' me along
Ghosts in my head, they won't let me rest
Haunted by the past, it's a weight on my chest
I climbed to the top, but they hate what I've done
They don't see the demons that I had to outrun
Ghosts in my head, they keep me awake
Every dream's a nightmare, filled with heartache
But I'm still standing, fighting to survive
Writing these words just to feel alive