Edward Sidler - Anhedonia (Sad Blue Forever) Lyrics

I tried to save the good days
And keep them close to my heart
But there are days when I wanna
Shut the world down

And I'm afraid it was not enough
I played pretend but I got it wrong
There's some things that I forgot
And there are some I'll never know

I don't want to feel like a lost cause
But everywhere I hear the sirens
There's a warning sign in front of me
(Flowers and roses and daisies and pain)

Nothing makes me happy anymore
(Sad blue forever)
I drown in the darkness all alone
(Sad blue forever)
I don't want to cry anymore
(Sad blue forever)
I just want to feel like I belong
(Sad blue forever)

So I'm still here
Swimming in the dark blue water
Lost inside my mind
Nowhere to be found

I thought it was the best plan to follow
Revive my last days of freedom
I've beaten my fears and my shadows
But I'm still feeling hollow

I've looked for ways to feel again
Everything I lost before the fire
But nothing I do will make me wake up
I'm lost in the nothing forever

Nothing makes me happy anymore
(Sad blue forever)
I drown in the darkness all alone
(Sad blue forever)
I don't want to cry anymore
(Sad blue forever)
I just want to feel like I belong
(Sad blue forever)

Can I break down without crashing?
Can I scream out in silence?
Can I stop pretending I'm happy?
Can I get free if I keep crying?

Nothing makes me happy anymore
(Sad blue forever)
I drown in the darkness all alone
(Sad blue forever)
I don't want to cry anymore
(Sad blue forever)
I just want to feel like I belong
(Sad blue forever)

(Sad blue forever)