EEMM Dinhousen - Isn't it Satisfying? Lyrics

Isn't it Satisfying?
When you're trying to do
Your best
There's something in your
Brain
That won't allow it

Should I tell my brother?
Where is all that happiness?
Last year I was my best
And now I'm dying

How can you say that you know
Well how I'm feeling
Just cause one time you were
My age?
I won't believe it

How could you not
See in my face I was scared?

Isn't it nice to look calm
When the people doesn't know
What is going in your mind?

Please don't let my dad know
He's too kind, I could lie
Just a little bit so you can
Pretend to feel alive

But I will never give up

Ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh
Ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh
Ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh

Please, stop the time before
It starts
Feel the anxiety coming back
I got too much in my mind
But you say I'm useless

Family splits but I'm still here
In the f*cking middle where
If I do or not a thing
I get stares all over me

Wish I could
Hear from you
That you're proud of me

And how
Could you not
See in my face
That I needed it?

Now you feel it
Put yourself in front of the
F*cking screen then
Tell me how you feel
After hours

Now you feel it
I'll tell you what I think
About you
I'll make you hate yourself
Then wash my hands
The same exact way
That you did

Why if I'm still alive
All I receive is judgement?
But when somebody dies
All they receive is compliment

How can you not care
When someone else
Comments about you?

But I will treat myself like I deserve

But I will never give up

Ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh
Ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh
Ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh

Please don't realize too late
There's time to make a change
Cause unfortunately one day
We won't be alive

Turn the f*cking ego off
The people that you love
Is actually more worth
Than somebody else's thought

Don't waist the time that is left
And don't say you care
Till they are no longer there