Eight Feet Fine - What If Lyrics

What if I stay instead of running away
What if I finally would face my pain
What if I am honest with myself and admit to myself that I have not been a friend
What if I realized that I have let you down
What if I know now I deliberately built walls
What if I'm sorry and I dare not tell you because I am ashamed of it today
I feel my sins burning deep under my skin
I hope you know that you have been kept in my heart and all these melodies
Can ́t handle this
I often wonder what we missed
I often wonder what it is that makes me lie and distance cause you ́re not my enemy
What if I admit I always took the easy way out
What if I wrongly blamed you just for my self-doubt
What if I see now I've been blind and reckless and left behind everything we've built
What if I am ashamed of how I acted in your case
What if I often wake up seeing your disappointed face
What if I shout out to the world that I was a coward and I made big mistakes
I pissed on years
Not realizing what I did
I ́m pretty sure you give a shit about this song and all these melodies
And you're right about this
They cannot heal or even fix
They cannot make up for my fallings can't excuse or fade the scars away
What I realized: it was my self-doubt I must face now
What I realized: it was my self-doubt I must face now
I pissed on years
Not realizing what I did
I ́m pretty sure you give a shit about this song and all these melodies
And you're right about this
They cannot heal or even fix
They cannot make up for my fallings can't excuse or fade the scars away