eL enigmA - Distantly Close Lyrics

I don't call like I should
I'm always making excuses
I know that this bothers you and I should be more attentive
To how you feel when I don't reach out
I should be more attentive
To how I speak when I reach out
Especially since we're so distant
I'm not accustomed to having so many miles between us
I always felt like you were next to me like Mercury and Venus
My lack of phone usage I know turns you away
But don't interpret my lack as way to make you fade
You are my stain that could never leave with diluted bleach
You have to change the fabric of my being to separate you from me
I always complain when you say nonsensical things
But you're the only person I know who can make wanna scream
Your impact on my impact is impactful in itself
You make me feel like shiny trophy on top of a shelf
And when I feel like I'm drowning
You reach your hand out to help
And then teach me how to swim so that I can salvage myself
You are a pearl and you know it
So precious and rare
It takes years to form you from just small grain of sand
But one thing that I've learned
From my time on my own
Is that you can change your location
But you can never change home
Before I leave home you make sure that blessed
Anointed oil on my forehead keeps your worries at rest
I always try my best to say my prayers at night
But I can count on you if I'm not doing them right
You are roots of this plant and because of you I am grounded
I can bear the fruits of your labor and leave everybody astounded
And when I came to you and talked about the pain in my soul
You took that pain in your hand and changed it to gold
You are an angel that has come from the heavens
I always wondered why you were obsessed with the number seven
But I know now
Its because you use divine metrics
You measure every single detail
From our birthdays to our checklists
You are a product of the matrix
You don't live in our time
You're always 10 minutes ahead
You are one of a kind
I know that it pains you to know that I'm growin'
Just understand that you'll always be wherever I'm goin'
I take pride to have you
It's like claiming a queen
I can't repay you enough
Because I owe you everything
That I am
With that said
I give up
I won't try
To pay back
All the things
That you gave
I would die
Before I
Would get to
Only Half
Of my Debts
So I guess
I will just
Donate part
Of my Chest
Specifically the left because that has the most love
Thank you for teaching me to keep my eyes set above
Without those lessons and talks
And petty altercations
I wouldn't be such an expert on how to have communication
You gave me your abilities
This art runs through my veins
The royalty in your genetics
Will one day make me a King
And when I'm sitting on my throne
Looking at what I have
I'll thank God for giving me you
And then I'll thank him for bands
The reason why us 4
Are always so close
Was because you spread the love equally
None of us had the most
And that's hard I know
When you have a son like me
So fly and creative
The others are instantly beat
You also showed me that truth
Is greater than lies
The way you always stayed honest
Really opened my eyes
We as people can be cruel
Constantly drawing borders
But you don't eat from the same place
You get your food special ordered
And you don't let your mind stumble
Never tainted at all
While the rest of the world loses itself
In red eyes and ethanol
But most of all you are distinguished
That's why you're a rose
Never think that I'm far ma'
Just say I'm distantly close
Love, Your Son