El Toro Rex - Thoughts Lyrics

I had enough with this f*ckin' depressing shit
I don't want no motherf*ckin' relationship
I just want to sit here with my loneliness
When I move I was alone from the beginning
Never go outside because I don't want to
Tryna talk it's like I'm not even in front of you
That's the type of feeling I f*ckin' expected
Y'all was so nice but I sense the switching
Acting like friends but turn into bitches
Yeah back to my old ways yea no f*ckin' kidding
Don't know the meaning of the word calm
Let the anger inside control me if it wants
Monster inside of me but my heart is soft
You bitch at me I want to hear less talk
Walk away damn am I trap in a box ?
I died my family cared but my friends did not
At my funeral I can still f*cking watch
All these fakes that want to see me rot
Getting away from the hell that I live in
Theres no point into making a difference
If none of these people would f*ckin' listen
Looks like getting bitches is part of mission
Stop tryna act like you in my shoes
I'm still human I'm not different than you
I just got this f*ckin' monster inside
To ignore my feelings no shit I get high
Dealth with my problems when I was sober
Now I need that weed for my f*ckin' composure
It's like the world is trapped in a vision
With a racist president as a representative
I'm not no motherf*cking Republican
Please don't make get into no politics
I just wanna f*ckin' roll independent
Getting so high till I'm out the f*ckin' planet
The dream I'm chasing is different from this rap shit
But unlike you just want to make fun of it
You got fame and shit but still not numb to it
Yeah you still not numb to it