Ellis Piper - Pen and Paper Lyrics

Tell me when did I get so obsessed
With finding clever rhymes instead
Of making sure I'm fine
'Cause now I fake it all the time
And tell me when my thoughts became so loud
Can't feel what's real, I drown them out
Now they're all set to chords
And lyrics, that's all I know anymore
And now I can't even cry without grabbing a pen and paper
Can't feel the highs without writing them down for later
Can't close my eyes 'cause then I might miss it
The story that I could be making it big with
I can't think of you without capitalizing on it
Can't feel the blue unless I sit here and write about it
So does it matter if it's fact or it's fiction
The story that I could be making it big with
Tell me when did I just lose my way
Once said there's blue beyond the gray
Now all I seem to find
Is endless dark above the sky
And tell me when'd I go from feeling small
To feeling nothing now
And smiles and tears all seem so far away
How long can I afford to wait
And now I can't even cry without grabbing a pen and paper
Can't feel the highs without writing them down for later
Can't close my eyes 'cause then I might miss it
The story that I could be making it big with
I can't think of you without capitalizing on it
Can't feel the blue unless I sit here and write about it
So does it matter if it's fact or it's fiction
The story that I could be making
Maybe I just wanna be alone
Maybe I just wanna let myself feel low
Maybe I just wanna go
Somewhere that you'll never ever know
Maybe I don't wanna be alright
Maybe I just wanna be out of sight
Maybe I just wanna cry
Somewhere that you'll never ever find
But now I can't even cry without grabbing a pen and paper
Can't feel the highs without writing them down for later
Can't close my eyes 'cause I might miss it
The story that I could be making it big with
I can't think of you without capitalizing on it
Can't feel the blue unless I sit here and write about it
So does it matter if it's fact or it's fiction
The story that I could be making it big with
Does it matter if it's fact or it's fiction
Just as long as it's keeping your interest