Ementee - February Lyrics

I don't understand life it's depressing as f*ck
Guess I've been sleeping fine until I ran outta luck
God it's driving me crazy not to have you by my side
And I don't sleep much cause it's depressing at night
I pop pills at times so I can sleep in peace
Thinking shit might help but then I see you in dreams
The plan was to ride and die together
But now I'm sitting in this empty room with some thoughts that I gathered
Look, I'm sorry what I did to you wasn't right of me
It has left me in a crazy loop, I'm down on my knees
But we're all human beings and we all make mistakes
And I've learnt my lesson but this ain't no movie no retake
It was really dumb of me do to all that f*cking shit
And it's been choking me, since the day we split
I just wish I could rewind the time and fix things
It was so good but it all fell in a blink

I just hate the kinda person I became
I'm just sick and tired of playing these games
Life is empty but who's to blame?
Every time I think about it, it puts me to shame

I just hate the kinda person I became
I'm just sick and tired of playing these games
Life is empty but who's to blame?
Every time I think about it, it puts me to shame

Now you've gone so far from me
It's crazier than it seems
No more bed of roses, no more tightly hugging we
It's just broken mirrors, broken cups of tea
I don't wanna live this life, I just hate reality
No more waking up to your face
No more kisses on my head
No more tearful gaze
I'm living in dread
I don't know if you're ever gonna come back
I'm done with lying, hiding behind a mask
Cause every day I wake up into a nightmare
Not waking up with you isn't quite fair
Setting 5 different alarms with a 10 minute gap
Yes, I miss it all, now it's all in thin air
But before I die just know that I love you, I apologise for every bad I did to you
Now it's all sad songs, everything's in blues
How did we fall apart? It couldn't be true
Now I've started seeing you in every place I look at
And it drive me nuts whenever I look back
At the time, you and me, in our little world, reality sucks
I'd rather die, close my eyes, never waking up
I know it was all my fault but don't we deserve another chance?
All this anxiety and depression, I'm living in trance

I just hate the kinda person I became
I'm just sick and tired of playing these games
Life is empty but who's to blame?
Every time I think about it, it puts me to shame

I just hate the kinda person I became
I'm just sick and tired of playing these games
Life is empty but who's to blame?
Every time I think about it, it puts me to shame

I just can't live with these lies anymore
It's 19th February today and it hurts me to my core
But whatever happens, I ain't taking no back door
I'm at a cold war with myself, man
Eyes sore, empty bottles of alcohol
Just come back soon, baby, ain't asking for nothing no more