Ementee - Sim Lyrics

I've never met a girl like you
F*cking beautiful, smart and high IQ
Man, i'm shitting my pants 'cuz i don't wanna mess this up
Been a Satan but around you i'm a lost pup
My tea's ready, but where's my mug?
I've never been this nervous i'm running outta words
I look at you in the eyes, i see my world
Then i kiss you outta the blue, the f*cking world just twirled
I'm falling in love again and i feel stronger than I've ever
Felt in my life, hold my hands now and forever
You're my light when it gets dark, the spark when my life is tearing apart
Guess this'll be a good fresh start
I was flabbergasted when you said yes to me
Shit, it's February already, i slept whole January
It was ecstasy, now i need some Modafinil
I slept so long, I'm dying I'm feeling so ill
Ready to kill to be with you
Or I need to chill
'Cuz i'll be blowing my brains out if I don't take another pill!

I haven't slept in a week so i pop some Alprazolam
Then i get a text from you and then again I'm rollin'
So what if i'm down on some pills?
A few red bulls and Moda, I'm back on top of the hill
Then we can Netflix and chill, we got some time to kill
But inside my head i'm going crazy and nuts
As i break my phone, I'm like what the f*ck?
Just punched the mirror, cut my fingers and my thumb
It's blood all over the floor, i need some Hypericum
God, I'm so dumb
Putting you through all this shit, YEA SIM I'M A SCUM!
But at the same time im bullying myself to write
And shit don't matter if i can't even take a fight
With the pen and paper, im jotting rhymes for you
If it's a crime to do, then take me to court and sue
If i could change things i'd do, but before i close this let me be clear to you
I regret it and I'm sorry but is it too late for a truce?
FUCK!

I still remember our first kiss, it was bliss
With all the memories left, I can only reminisce
But the blame's on me, I shouldn't have cheated on you
I've been a pile of crap but I'm trying to come through
All the shit inside my head, had to put this bed
Happy Birthday, Sim, I've got you depression in wrap
Showed you what's heaven like then put you through hell
If I had saved my tears, I could've filled up a well
And so could you, shit! it was true
Love between us but maybe I wasn't worthy of you
All the memories running down my tears
Then anxiety comes in and then my biggest fear
Of losing you, shit, I hope it's not too late
I've been addressing my issues and there's no alternate
Way of getting it done, I've been propelling myself
If I could spun this back, I'd even go through hell
But I'm sorry it was you who had to go through it
But remember! I'mma never gonna quit