Since the day I looked back ashamed
No beauty or ugliness
Shy, withdraw and all at state
Seems like damage control to me.
Sadness
Monstrous
Blank and dumb / numb / and gone
Since the day I looked forth in pain
It's just beauty no ugliness
Shy, withdraw nothing at state
Seems like damage control to me.
I fear the grind-down effect of doing nothing, something that's supposed to have an effect on me. Instinctively, I know ahead of time that the effect won't be there. That's my radar again. I don't have to arrive there myself to know that there's not going to be anything there. I hit it hard in my early days, glanced around and I was out. Out and gone.
Freezing, electric, too safe, to see it, disturbing, empty, a need to unwind
Breathing, electric, too safe, to feel it, I need to rewind
All conversations, the wasted years. Try to recover, I'm open ears
I don't anyone who could react like this. Act like.
All is / almost gone / already gone