Empress Eyes - Backup Plan Lyrics

I don't wanna go to school anymore, or push my dreams aside
Trying to be digestible, or at least someone that you like
I don't wanna live a half-assed life
If I don't make it out of this state alive
At least I tried, at least I tried
I just wanna do what I love Can't be who I'm not
That part of me has died
Drowning in the heat in the passenger seat
I'm no longer along for the ride
Abandoned myself for people that I didn't even like
Yeah, I've made mistakes
But this time I will make them right

Now these growing pains never went away,
Just gained intensity
This fluorescent space going up in flames, and I guess the same for me
Don't know who I'm meant to be

Stuck on my cell phone, trying to live a double life
And now when I call home
I can't help but talk slow
I still wanna hide

F*ck having a backup plan
I'll see you after the show
'Cause when the lights go off, I don't feel so lost anymore
'Cause when the lights go off, I don't feel so lost anymore

Now these growing pains never went away, just gained intensity
This fluorescent space going up in flames, and I guess the same for me
I know who I'm meant to be

It's easy to be free when no one else is watching
All the spaces that are vacant, I created
Now feel haunted
And it's easy to be free when no one else is watching
But if you really knew me, you'd know it's all I ever wanted

So f*ck having a backup plan, I'll see you after the show
'Cause when the lights go off, I don't feel so lost anymore
'Cause when the lights go off, I don't feel so lost anymore

If I don't make it out of this state alive, at least I tried
At least I tried
At least I tried
At least I tried