Envyus - Let Me Talk Lyrics

I been walking for a mighty long time
Through fields of dead grass under black skies
Breathing through broken noses and seeing through black eyes
Thinking with a fragmented mind
About magnificent times
With maleficent binds
I know a lot of y'all won't vibe with this but I've spent a long time hiding this
And I just need to speak my mind a bit
I'm sorry if it don't make sense it's like translating my thoughts with a lisp and split lip
I've felt so absent like I'm walking and living with no passion
Waiting for life to throw a curve ball just to have a reaction
When's the last time you went out without acting
When's the last time I went out without lacking
I can't ever be a has been
Or what happened to him
Or nah f*ck him he ain't bad as them
He ain't half of them
I can't ever be last again
I don't wanna be mad trapped in the quick sand
Sad that I can't stand can't be a man can't hold onto your hand can't conquer the land
I'm sorry I ran
I'm sorry I ran
I'm sorry I ran
Please let me back in
I've been banging on this door since ten
I ain't talking bout the clock hands
I'm talking bout year 10 since our time began
I'm sorry I ran

Embrace
You have to lose
Think straight
You never do
Embrace
You have to lose
Think straight
You never do

I talk a lot about moving solo
I talk a lot about ending it all
I think about doing it for promo
I think a lot about feeling the fall
If I jumped would I regret it at once
Or would be I glad I could race to the sun
I don't wanna be the failed son
And let my mom down and not make my dad proud
I don't want my brothers to put me in the ground
I don't want my friends wishing that I stayed around
I don't want my girl thinking that I hate her now
If it weren't for y'all I wouldn't be here now
I got dogs at home and I know they'd go wild
If I never came home cause they hate when I'm gone awhile
I don't wanna miss my kids first smile
I don't wanna miss when they fall off the bicycle
I want my family to rake in the money pile
Wish I believed when they said look God's with you
Cried so much feeling like God's tissue
Complain so much feeling like God's issue
Envy can't die cause you know that they'll miss you
I can't stand the fear of being misused
Misunderstood miserable and misfortuned
I don't know what to do
I don't know what's a bruise
When I'm covered in scars and I try to see through it all

I'm sorry I had no clue at all
I'm sorry I had no clue at all
I'd take it all back to them walks on the boulevard
Before I grabbed your heart and had it torn apart
Short lived like Bonaparte
Our love lives on
Like a picture in the stars
Or the words in a song

Embrace
You have to lose
Think straight
You never do
Embrace
You have to lose
Think straight
You never do