Equalex - In My Head Lyrics

Inside my mind I find my self confined
I keep talking to myself we feel I've done my time
I'm out of touch with a world that's out of touch with me
And I'm looking at it now but I can't touch it see
The only reality is the cell I keep
Banging my head against the bars I bleed
And I don't need another reason to be on my knees
But now my back's against the wall and so it forces me to start
Giving a witness to all the shit that's within this
You know it's hard to forgive em when you don't know your own limits
And then you'll find that it's different when you're neck deep in decisions
You'll eat the inch that was given and find a mile you can't live in

I'm lost
In my mind
I'm locked
In my head
I'm afraid
Of what I'll find
I'm not alive
But I'm not dead

In my head a war will rage while I'm stuck inside this cage
Battles that I've fought and lost and a heart overcome by frost
Out the door my life is tossed nail myself upon the cross
Cold and alone I try to pick up the phone
But when I call it seems like no one's home at least that's what I'm shown
Take a glance in my eyes I'm in a trance in disguise
No one knows the shit I hide while my mind eats me alive
No relief I'll surely die guess I'll find out in due time
Medicate until I'm fine while I'm dwindling down the line
In a world that's so unkind trying to search but I can't find
Something to help or maybe give me a sign
Because I'm drowning in the waters of my own design

I'm lost
In my mind
I'm locked
In my head
I'm afraid
Of what I'll find
I'm not alive
But I'm not dead

I feel it coming over me my mind becomes a prison
And I asked you for a little help that's all that's ever given
Now I lost the fight and might the war
No end insight despite the gore
Tonight's the night that I ignore
The light forth right at heavens door
I'm not a stranger to the anger it's been given to me
I mean the danger is my anchor most indefinitely
So I stay trapped inside my head like I was destined to be
Or else I'll on the people that's invested in me
My mental state was bound to break you cant escape your fate
Inevitably bottled up inside but my release was just to late
Now I'm on the edge leaning over so I contemplate
On jumping in head first finding comfort in the worst

I'm lost
In my mind
I'm locked
In my head
I'm afraid
Of what I'll find
I'm not alive
But I'm not dead