Ethan O'Nan - Nightmares Lyrics

It comes in waves
Because every time I thought you were here to stay
You'd cage yourself back in and turn me away
I only wanted to help, so night stole my day
Now the only memory I have are the scars you gave

That is not what I thought it would be, and
That is not the dream I dreamed, and
That is not the life I need
But now this house is so empty

I'm looking for you, but you're not there
But I still see you in my nightmares
Nobody told me how hard it can be
To bury my past far from me
But you still visit in my nightmares

It comes in waves
Cause an ocean can't flow from me all at once
And I know I'm not the same I used to be because
Now the shadows in the corner make me wince
I haven't believed someone could really love me since

That is not what I thought it would be, and
That is not to what I agreed, and
That is not the life I need
My nightmares turned out just like I dreamed they'd be

I'm looking for you, but you're not there
But I still see you in my nightmares
Nobody told me how hard it can be
To bury my past far from me
But you still visit in my nightmares

Please tell me
What happened to the safety of brotherly love?
What happened to our dreams and the life we wanted?
What happened to the fun we had together?
But honestly, what happened to "friends forever?"
Were the songs and the gifts and all the times I stayed
Not enough for you, it was just my heart I gave?
Like two warriors of old, with you I wasn't afraid
But then your eyes ghosted mine, it's like your soul went blind
Because you believed the rumors that were told
You bought all the lies that the devil sold
And I guess you did what's best for you
But I guess your best friend wasn't me

Where are you?
It's so lonely out here in the cold
The weekends are hard when you're alone

So I'm still looking for you, but you're not there
But I still see you in my nightmares
Nobody told me how hard it can be
To send your best friend back to sea
But you still visit in my nightmares