Eva Marie Shannon - Deep Dark Secrets Lyrics

Deep dark secrets
From the past they spring
The present so safe
Until horrid fears the past brings
Not so bad, if I block
If I numb, if I split
But against my true self
My defenses do pit
When my body remembers
And I get real upset
My mind starts to block
I begin to forget
Denial may set in
When emotions are rough
I hide from the truth
And the deeply painful stuff
Why should I need to
Keep refusing to deal
With the core of my dysfunction
I keep refusing to feel
I really need help
From myself and my friends
To help me work through this pain
So my heart mends
I look to your soul
Hoping it's kind
Fearing it's not
Panic deep in my mind
It just shouldn't be
That I feel your gentle touch
Overcome by terror
That you'll want way too much
So what's there to lose
In letting you in
I might lose myself
And be hurt once again
My patterns I fear
They take me away
From the reality I must face
I just don't feel okay