Dead to Me Video (MV)

I know that it's impossible
To maintain someone's trust
And I can't become invincible
But I'll function if I must
Perhaps it's good for both of us
To maintain distance then
Cause I don't know what I would do
Except go to war with a pen
I've spent time away from you
Yet look at me, I'm back
I'm still attracted to your presence
But it's your attention I lack
I never wanted to love you
Or expected you to love me too
I want to have your friendship back
But I think it's best if I lose
When will I stop comparing
Myself and others to you
I cannot continue life like this
I'm never happy or new
Why can't I ever move on
I've had no trouble with that before
I left behind all of my wrongdoings
But you've been keeping score
I can't ever say goodbye
I see you wherever I go
No matter how hard I try
I just keep yearning to know
Why did you ever leave me
But I know the answer too well
I gave you up on my own accord
Then locked myself up in a cell
I can never find the words
To say to you or myself
I've given up on pleasing you
Given up on spiritual wealth
I saw you returned to your home town
How did that end up for you
Right now as far as my eye can see
You're avoiding the concept of truth
For a second of my time
I forgot that you were here
I would never have guessed
That this space would last a year
I always used to ask myself
What I had done wrong
I may never know but, hell,
This has been one year too long
Hey, your smile is dead to me
Your eyes have lost their hue
I wish that at least one more time
I could see the color blue
You've moved on and I should too
And I try every single day
I can only ignore you for so long
Cause I don't want you to go away