EXEM - Pretending to Be Me Lyrics

So I guess its just another night alone
Ima spend it in my room
Ima Spend it alone
Not gonna spend it with you
Just another night alone
And Ill let you presume
I act the same in here as I do with you
But baby that isn't true
Shed be like baby that isn't you

So ima drop some LSD, and then drop the filter through which you see me
I take drugs because I want to leave my f*cking body
And leave this world behind
I just wanna close my eyes, and feel my body die
Faster
Cause dying sober is to slow
And we both know
It's just to painful
To not let go
There's nothing left for me here
Goodbye my dear
Goodbye my piers

Perceptive, perspective
Alluring, reflective
I speak on what I've learmt and what I know
But no longer will I drone

Alone, I have many friends
Alone, I hold their hands
Alone, I walk with them
Alone, I void their pain
Alone, I fight their way
Alone, we walk away
Alone, I pretend
That in the end. It'll will all be okay, some day
Some way
No way

Pretending, to be me
Pretending, to be happy
Pretending because they can't see
They just recognize my disguise
How can you see me when you won't open your eyes
Selfish vibes
Throw your pain on me and just let me die
Let it die with me
Just remember who ill always be
You'll realize in time, but when you realize at last
It'll be once I've passed
Please know I tried my best, before I left, but now I'm gone
I had this pain in my soul that I couldn't even mend with song
Love is light. And I'll find it soon
This life was filled with darkness of which I was consume

Pretending I'm not over-run
I tell them they can overcome
But I never overcame
I'm forever the same
They'll never know
They'll never see
I'm forever the person I'm pretending not to be
I'm not me